Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Consummating A Love Affair And Other Matters

Im taking another blogging respite. Not because of utter lack of writing matters, on the contrary, I will soon have a lot of fodder to write about. I'll be out of town again. Tomorrow's the start of my almost-weeklong Vacation Leave.

Caleruega, Batangas

(I do hope you get embarassed by this, because that is really the point of this post, Aggie. Lavya, girl! Muah!)

Beauty Queen at 18 + Apollo on Earth


Couple of the Millenium: Aggie and Edil

Taken from the Blog of an OC Bride (Aggie)

I met you on a Sunday, April 27, 1993.
Introduced officially on February 13, 1996.
Started being friends Holy Week of 1996.
The first time you told me you loved me was on June 30, 1996.
First time held hands on July 21, 1996.
Reciprocated on August 10, 1996.

On, Off, On, Off.
Until we got tired.
Surrendered the pride and decided to grow up,
let Love take over.

To forever, my Love.
Happy A.

And the gate to forever?

Chapel of the Transfiguration of Jesus
Caleruega, Nasugbu, Batangas
June 24, 2005

Now everybody, say it with me now: AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWw.

Iba, Zambales

Now for this, I decided to forego any description. Really excited for it, though.

Visiting the Philippines, One 'Island' At A Time. :)

Life. Is. Good.
Don't let them tell you otherwise.

See you all next week beautiful people.

ps: Che!!! Like last year....I'm sorry I can't come to your party this Friday. See above. Aggie will hang me otherwise. I'm sure it will be great. Cheers to you and Jaz! :)

pps: White Party...What White Party?

[Music of the Moment: You Gotta Be - Des'ree ]
[Mood: celebrating life's perfect moments ]

Monday, June 20, 2005

Fete D' La Weekend

disclaimer: the following entry will be as wordy as hell. Kinda like abstaining from onanism for several days. Yeah. You get a lot.

It was bound to happen. Another weekend that passed me, left me breathless. It was one heck of a ride. Sometimes when we least expect it, life turns around and makes us realize how lucky we are in pretty much everything else. Family, friends, love.

At this point in my life, I'd like to say that I'm infinitely wiser now in affairs of the heart. I'm getting off of the "I'm jaded" bandwagon and giving this thing a whole new lease. I'm so glad that I chose to do so.

Spare Yourself! Do Not Watch This Cra--Movie.

I had a date with Ian. Like any day for me, I don't limit it to a single place. I wanted to meet up at Megamall at around 11am first so that we can have a late brunch. Also theres a lot of shops I needed to visit. It was a bit awkward at first. In a dance, I used to always follow. I guess, this time, I'm leading. Out on a whim I decided to have us see Mr. & Mrs. Smith over Batman Begins, cause I'm still hurting from the brainfreeze that the previous incarnations left me. How wrong I was. Turns out Mr. & Mrs. Smith is Tomb Raider and [insert whatever action movie Brad Pitt has done here] in a suburban setting. This movie was so cheesy, you just have to bring chips and you're set. The plot was also so brain dead. If not for the frantic running and gunning scenes (and Jolie's voluptous legs) this movie would be such a waste of time.

Wherefore Art Thou, Greenhills Of Yore?

After throwing 2 hours of my life down the drain that is Mr. & Mrs. Smith, I wanted to see Greenhills again (its been months since I last set foot there). We were welcomed by an alien building standing where the mall used to be. Greenhills is NOT Greenhills anymore. I mean, the place I used to go to to satiate my baratilyo needs; The place where I get knock offs that passes off, sometimes even looking better than the real thing, the place which was a audio/visual treasure cove care of the pirates; is gone. In its place a spic and span and grotesquely shiny mall with all the accuterments of a semi upscale establishment. Let's all pause for a while to mourn the demise of an institution...

Ok mourning over. I did however get a kick out of the new sites to go to. To say that now theres a lot of restaurants in the area would be an understatement. Italian, American, Japanese, Mongolian, Martian (ha!) and Korean. I decided to go on a whim. I tried this cozy little place called Mini Shabu-Shabu (which is Korean for You No Eat Rice, You Cook On Table or whatever- Im just making it up). The restaurant has its quirky Korean flair and interior decors (which I loved). On the walls were my favorite art: Post Modern Oriental.

Addicted to Shabu-shabu

Heres the trick on eating Shabu-Shabu (no, not the narcotics, you silly banana). Whatever the waiter/waitress upsells, go for something else. And whenever they say good for two persons, take heed. 1 Korean serving is equal to 2 Filipino servings. One serving IS enough for two. The charm of the store would be its in-your-face cooking. They leave every ingredient on the table for you, light up a mini stove tucked neatly beneath your table and you "cook" everything to your liking. Of course, in our case, I've never set foot in a such a resto before so asked this uber cute waiter to do the cooking for us. Yum. Just watch out for those spices. I literally cried in front of Ian, much to his amusement (hehe, itshokey,you) This is food experience is definitely a must try. If Carlo has his Bovine Diva Recommends, this would be my Advent/2020 Must Try's. :)

Greenbelt, Greenbelt, I Keep Coming Home to Greenbelt...

After traipsing through the new stores, my feet told me to shoot for Greenbelt 3. At heart I will always be a Makati person, and I felt it would be nice to take my date there. We were supposed to catch the Batman Begins showing at Greenbelt 3, however the other half of the legendary office lovers (legendary due to their 1 ++ years of co-existence), Val texted me that he wants to go on a night out. Thats when I remembered that the Fete de La Musique is happening at El Pueblo, so I agreed to have a double date. We waited for Romeo And Julius to arrive and boy did they make us wait. In the meantime, Ian treated me at Icebergs (yeah, yeah, mushy I know, but we all need a little mush every once in a while, dont we?). Thats when I saw a familiar visage. Jayzee. As in Mr. Jayzee Dezign. Tagging along him were two heterosexual females. And when I dropped by to say hello, I immediately got the universal sign of "I'm undercover (wink wink)" meaning, these two former college mates of his doesnt know that he's, ahem ahem, one of the colors of the rainbow. It was such a riot calling him "Paaaaareh" in front of the clueless twosome.

We had been waiting for quite a while till I got that SMS from Val saying that they cant make it anymore saying that Poy (the other half) "overslept". Yeah right. I get it. Sometimes I "oversleep" too, Poy. Its ok really. :)

So we headed out to Ortigas by our twosome. We were halfway through when joy of all joys, Rakel texted me that they are also in the area. They meaning she and loveydovey, Mr. Channel 2 who coincidentally had a band performing for the night to. (see, I didn't name him, girl). :) I loooove this girl. She's been my chicka mate and taray mate and laitera mate, and ganda mate and whatever kinda mate when she was still a Spanish agent for our account. We even wanted to become FA's back then, remember? Hay...I so miss this girl. Thats why I was so excited going to Fete. However things didnt look as peachy clean at the venue.

Macabre d'la Musique!

It was a logistical nightmare. I don't know if the organizers were smoking pot when they chose such a cramped venue to hold this event on. If they anticipated at least the same number of people from last year, this wouldn't had been a wise choice. Imagine a swarm of sweaty bodies, mostly in black, brandishing their specific "clan's" battlecry like "Punk Is Not Dead", or "Metal Is Not Dead", or "Bubblegum Pop Is Not Dead" (I kid, I kid). It was a tad horrific. Especially when the crowd got agitated by one of the security guards, causing a would-have-been-riot. I just waited for some bands then I told Ian that I just want to hang out at Starbucks and just wait for Rakel there. When we got to Starbucks, Ian saw two of his friends, one semi-celebrity and some random guy. They were a tad unsociable, I must say. They kept their conversations to themselves (which I hated of course). I would never ever do that. I always make sure that any newly introduced person, I would have chit chat with and make them feel welcome. Its just me, I guess. Some people just don't have enough social grace. Luckily, after a few minutes of me staring into blabbering mouths, Rakel and Ch.2 arrived. Fresh air.

I'd Like To Teach The World To Sing..

We left the two characters behind (I wouldn't have wanted it any other way) and headed back to Jupiter Makati. Rakel wanted to go to a KTV, and IO came to mind. In fairness, the sound system in this place is just outstanding. Near concert like. We got there around 12 midnight and sang our hearts out till 3:30 am. Such a blast hanging out with these two. Oh, and have I mentioned, that Mr. Channel 2 is one of the head honchos in the office? Think supervisor, now think the supervisor of all supervisors, now think the supervisor of that. He's our Operations Manager. Wait, did I just sing in front of the highest man in the land (office wise of course). It just sunk in a few minutes after we said our goodbyes.


Now, you may think that the night is over right? Wrong. Becky Paolo (the grass skirt wearing guy in the company luau) texted me saying that he and his current boyfriend, Mr. Showerboy, is in (drumroll please) Red Box. What is Red Box you might ask? You'll never guess...Its another KTV, this time situated in Greenbelt 3. Its the KTV to put to shame all other KTVs.

I hailed a cab and literally made the driver fly it to Greenbelt. We were able to catch 25 minutes of the remaining time. Make that 35 minutes because Paolo and I are such pasaways and we extended by a full 2 songs. It was a showdown. It was so much fun. And according to that Mean Girl, it was so Fetch! hehe. Btw, Mr. Showerboy can sing. So Pao, you know what to do. ;)


Martin my beleaguered and prodigal friend gave me a ring. He was about to take his lunch (yeah, at 4:30am CCT.--callcenter time) He works at the posh PBCom towers. Since its in the immediate vicinity, I dragged Ian (and he came without much objection. muah) to the lobby. Martin, the primmadonna extraordinaire that he is came down, a full 15 minutes after his stated time. But I love him nevertheless. We've been friends since highschool and we've been through a whole lot of crazyness. An old friend and a new friend. We talked, laughed, verbally harassed each other, talked some more, until the sun peeked through the horizon.

This had been such a perfect day.

[Music of the Moment: Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson ]
[Mood: complete ]

Friday, June 17, 2005

Coming Home For The Weekends And Other Matters

This image is just cool:

Desire, Despair, Delirium, Dream, Death, Destiny, Destruction


Friday next week will be Aggie's wedding at Caleruega, Batangas. Jen and I had been in cahoots with the beautiful lady who'll be walking down the aisle in preparing for this event. The thing is, two of our batchmates who'd been invited are now in a non-friends phase. "Domestic issues" was the root of it all. Now one party wouldn't set foot in the Church if the other party is there. Hay.

If you happen to be reading this, (and I know you are -you don't have to reply) please, let's give this one day for our Aggie. This wedding had been 5 years in the making. A whirlwind romance is now ready to be consummated. This is her big day. Can we just lay our issues aside? Aggie wants you there. Both of you.

The past is the past, lets just leave it at that. I know what's at stake here. Pride.
Lets close the wounds shall we? Hate is such a waste of conscious effort and is best thrown out with the trash. I should know.


Btw, Carlo! You have to RSVP by Monday. No excuses, girl. Aggie will come out of the church in her gown, and drag you all the way to Caleruega if she has to. :)


See you at El Pueblo tomorrow!


Have a good weekend everyone.

[Music of the Moment: Stay - Cushee [sp?] ]
[Mood: trapped between hell and high water ]

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Musical Rain

*looks out the window. Overcast skies. Looks like rain today. And tomorrow.
-cue background music, London Symphony orchestra, gradually building up to dramatic melody

-stage light on
-in front of me materializes Lea Salonga and Michael Ball

(with matching higa sa sahig, emote to the highest heavens. Tinamaan ng bala sa tiyan. Pero nakakakanta pa.)

EPONINE :Don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now
You're here, that's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
And rain will make the flowers grow.

(Mega buhat kay Eponine. Kunwari concerned.)

MARIUS : But you will live, 'Ponine - dear God above,
If I could heal your wounds with words of love.

(emote again, alam na pinaplastikan sya ng ugok. Pero type niya pa rin kaya make the most of the moment. Tigok na later e.)

EPONINE : Just hold me now, and let it be.
Shelter me, comfort me

(nangii stir)

MARIUS :You would live a hundred years
If I could show you how
I won't desert you now...

(deadma, pero emote parin. Eto na ang highlight. Kabugin ang audience)

EPONINE : The rain can't hurt me now
This rain will wash away what's past
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
I'll sleep in your embrace at last.

The rain that brings you here
Is Heaven-blessed!
The skies begin to clear
And I'm at rest
A breath away from where you are
I've come home from so far
So don't you fret, M'sieur Marius

I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now

That's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close

(aba, nilalamon ako nito ha. Ayaw makipag blending. Makipag-bungangaan nga. This is it)

MARIUS(in counterpoint)
Hush-a-bye, dear Eponine,
You won't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt you now
I'm here

I will stay with you
Till you are sleeping

(ok tama na sapawan. take turns)

EPONINE : And rain...

MARIUS :And rain...

(dramang pa fade away everloo. Dapat humaguhol ang audience. Emote to the highest heavens again. At wag tapusin ang line, para dagdag dramah.)

EPONINE : Will make the flowers...

MARIUS : Will make the flowers... grow...


[Music of the Moment: Uhm, you'll never guess ]
[Mood: rained in ]

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Working Like Its Nobody's Business

I just had the most entertaining training session awhile ago. Well actually, most of the trainings I undergo felt like I wasn't even training at all. Siguro, swerte lang talaga sa account (and sa company -shameless plug of course!). But nevertheless, nothing can top this training yet.

I was actually a part of the module. As in an active part of it. But whats funny is that I didn't even knew it at the start. The trainer, Lod, is a friend of mine. He'd been my supervisor before he got promoted. So along with another supervisor friend of mine, Love, they plotted a training/reality show hybrid. Ang kulit talaga ng show, este nung training. The plot is: who's training who? Panalo!

On the office front, you could actually feel a sense of general well being. You know, almost akin to that feeling you get when Christmas time is just around the bend. The same kind of feeling when you're awaiting for something good to arrive. Morality is on an all time high. Maybe because theres so much to expect in the coming months. First of, we are moving to our new building along the Central Business District of Ayala Avenue. Read, our own building. Not leasing, not buying, but a building that was built from the ground up just for us. In fact its eponymous, the People Support Center. It has restaurants at the lower floors (crossing our fingers that that vacant slot would either be a Seattle's or at the very least a Starbucks), the usual ammenities of a call center (shower rooms, sleeping rooms, etc etc) and the creme de la creme, a gym. Yup. Our own gym. Goodbye, expensive gym memberships! Hello, seeing that cutie from the other account in the shower room and lockers! YUM!

Then there will be the release of the salary increases for employees who've been loyal to the company through the years (to think that I just got my annual raise, now there's talk of tenure raise..hay). Add the fact that PS had just gone public on the NASDAQ. We were given shares, and they leave it up to us to trade them (whoopsie, thats right, I wasn't supposed to tell anyone about that because of that insider trading clause...oh well).

The events, the outings all lined up for the rest of the year...Hay. There are times when I've been asked by friends and acquiantances alike why I still remain in the call center "industry". As far as I can tell them, life is good for me here and its still getting better. As of now, that migrating to the States offer by my Tita will have to wait.

[Music of the Moment: That Halelujah song by Bamboo ]
[Mood: beaming with pride ]

Monday, June 13, 2005

When People Can't Accept Change

A dear friend just sent me an email asking me what's the deal with my recent posts concerning LGBT (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender) issues. He is dying to know because -as one of the founding "mothers" of TLF (The Library Foundation) and currently active in several support groups - he's been asking for volunteers eversince. He also wants to know what orgs I'm active in.
Mother dear, (I just have to respond to this publicly) no I am not affiliated with ANY organized groups as of yet. I guess I'm not ready for it. But the advocacy is strong in me. I just help out in my own little way. (p.s.: Anyone out there who's willing to be Mother's protege, just let me know).

Anyway, here's another article I found. The last line is hilarious.

Anti-Gay Group Launches Ford Boycott by Doreen Brandt Washington Bureau (link)
(Washington) The conservative Christian group America Family Association launched a nationwide boycott of Ford Motor Company on Tuesday over the automaker's support for LGBT issues.

The announcement of the boycott came two weeks after AFA began a similar action against Kraft Foods - stopping just short of calling for a full boycott -for sponsoring the 2006 Gay Games in Chicago.

Ford's line of vehicles includes Ford, Lincoln, Mercury, Volvo, Jaguar, Mazda and Land Rover.

AFA has set up a website to encourage its members to register for the boycott.

"If one looks for the company which has done the most to affirm and promote the homosexual lifestyle, he would be hard-pressed to find a company which has done more than Ford Motor Company," AFA Chair Donald E. Wildmon notes on the website.

"While this is hardly known to the general population, it is well known by numerous homosexual organizations. In fact, the Human Rights Campaign (a national homosexual organization whose goal is homosexual marriage) gave Ford a 100% corporate rating."

AFA also denounces the company for supporting GLAAD, saying "Ford believes the effort to legalize homosexual marriage by the Gay and Lesbian Alliance Against Defamation (GLAAD) is so important that the company is giving GLAAD up to $1,000 for every Jaguar or Land Rover (both Ford products) purchased this year."

It also notes that "Volvo has donated $500 to the Human Rights Campaign when a vehicle is purchased or leased."

The conservative group also complains that Ford recognizes domestic partners in its company policy, gave $5,000 last year to Detroit's Pride celebration, and regularly advertises in the gay media.

The Mississippi-based AFA claims more than 2.2 million members.

"I urge you to take action today. Sign the petition to boycott Ford. Call your local Ford, Lincoln, Mercury, Volvo, Jaguar, Mazda and/or Land Rover dealer (all are part of Ford Motor Company) and inform them you will not be buying a Ford product until they stop their promotion of the homosexual movement and homosexual marriage," Wildman says in email to AFA members.

The AFA is one of the largest and most well funded organizations battling LGBT civil rights and same-sex marriage in the nation.

Last week it ended a 9-year boycott of the Walt Disney Co. declaring success, although Disney says that its policies have not changed.

The AFA launched the boycott in 1996 when the company began giving benefits to the domestic partners of gay employees. It denounced Disney for Gay Days at DisneyWorld in Orlando and a similar event at Disneyland in California and attacked the company for gay positive films - especially from its Miramax division.

Last month AFA announced victory over giant consumer products company Proctor & Gamble.

The P&G boycott stemmed from the company's support for the repeal of an anti-gay law in Cincinnati, where its world headquarters are located, and from its LGBT-positive advertising.

According to AFA, P&G had spent over $8.2 million in only six months last year to advertise on Will and Grace and $2 million for spots on Queer Eye for the Straight Guy.

As a result of the boycott most of that advertising was cancelled according to the AFA - an assertion denied by P&G.

Despite the action against Kraft, the company reaffirmed its commitment to the Gay Games according to Games co-vice chair Kevin Boyer.

The AFA has a long history of opposing LGBT civil rights. It is a leading supporter of the Federal Marriage Amendment to ban same-sex marriage and helped pass amendments to bar gay marriage in 11 states last November.

In January, it declared popular cartoon character SpongeBob SquarePants to be gay. AFA was angry that the character was used in a video for schools aimed at combating discrimination.

© 2005

Just another proof that dinosaurs didn't die out in the "mass extinction". Some of them are alive and roaring, using their peanut sized brains and lobbying for a cause to "protect" their way of life.

Accept it or not, LGBT issues are becoming mainstream. Eventually, there will come a time when it shouldn't be even considered an "LGBT" issue anymore, rather, a part of the human issue. I'm looking forward to that.

[Music of the Moment: What A Wonderful World - Louis Armstrong ]
[Mood: wearing my battle regalia ]

Friday, June 10, 2005

What We All Want

I got this from an online friend (thanks, Paris!). Actually, the story is a bit too heterosexual for me so I tweaked it up a bit because its all true, regardless of our preference. All the colored text are mine. I just substituted pronouns and added a line or two to spice it up. Plagiarism? Nope. Just intellectual property refurbishing (and its not like this is a published work or something, I know you love me enough to allow me this, right?).

In a brief conversation, a boy asked another boy he was pursuing, the question, "What kind of man are you looking for?" He sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asked.

"Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said,
"Yes." He began to expound...

As a liberated gay boy in this day and age,
I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself.
I pay my own bills.
I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter.
I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?"

The other boy looked at him. Clearly he thought that he
was referring to money.

He quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am
not referring to money. I need something more."

I need a man who is striving for perfection in every
aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked
him to explain.

He said, "I am looking for someone who is striving
for perfection mentally because I need conversation
and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man."

I am looking for someone who is striving for
perfection spiritually because I don't need to be
unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers
is a recipe for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for perfection
financially because I don't need a financial burden.
I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to
understand what I go through, but
strong enough to keep me grounded.

I am looking for someone who I can respect.
In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be
submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his
business. I have no problem being submissive... he
just has to be worthy.

I can't help a man if he can't help himself.

When he finished his spiel, he looked at him.
He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said,
"You're asking a lot."

He replied, "I'm worth a lot."

[Music of the Moment: This Train Don't Stop There Anymore - Elton John ]
[Mood: beaming ]

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Musical Tags Of Death

Thank You TheFool At Sinali Mo Ko Dito...(insert growl here) hehe joke lang, Che.
Lets start shall we?

Total volume of music files on my computer:
You wont believe it, but I've got 3 GB of music - mp3s, videos, etc, etc on this computer. 4.5 Gb if you add the yahoo accounts I randomly generated just to fill it up with MP3s and its still growing...To top it all off, the PC's not even mine! I'm such an asset to this company.

Last CD I bought:
Bought? Please define. Does the word even exist in this day and age of shameless Peer 2 Peer exchange and piracy? Kidding. Hmm. Thats a hard one. Its been such a looong time. Ok! From a fragment of a memory 7months ago: There was this CD sale at the Enterprise building along Ayala Avenue. (You know that building straight out of Gotham City?) I got Bury The Hatchet by the Cranberries, The Big Picture by Elton John and Evolution by BoysIIMen.

Song playing right now:
Mariah Carey's next number 1 hit (I think): Mine Again. What a voice. Powerful rendition, emotionally charged.

Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
This should be easy:

1.) Life For Rent by Dido - "I apologize that once again I'm not in love but it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking"...the opening song of the movie that is my life. Provocative words, rich melody, haunting voice. What more can you ask for?

2.) Gold Dust by Tori Amos - "Whipping past the reflecting pool me + you"...this song just does it for me. Its something really personal for Tori (as all her songs are) but somehow, I'm drawn to its underlying story. Its sad, its beautiful, its deliberately painful.

3.) I Wanna Know What Love Is by The Foreigner, Tina Arena, Anthony Fedorov, and Sarah Geronimo - "This mountain I must climb feels like the world upon my shoulders"...So many renditions, so little time. Nevertheless, the reason why I included this song is that its one of those songs I, literally, grew up with. It was released in 1984 under the band's Agent Provocateur album. I was 2 years old then, it was later covered by this (then) unknown Australian songstress when I was in highschool, heard a rendition of some obscure band when I was in college and now, Anthony Fedorov sung his heart out with it in Season 4 of AI. I got a somewhat pleasant surprise when Sarah covered it as well. To give her credit, I first thought it was Celine Dion doing a cover. I loved her arrangement because she made it her own near the end of the song. No trademark vocal gymnastics, just plain heartfelt rendition.

4.) Lovesong by The Cure and Tori Amos. "whenever i'm alone withyou you make me feel like i am clean again"...The Cure and Tori Amos....'nuff said.

5.) You Fcuking Me Makes Me Bilingual by Jose Nunez - "you give it to me so good, you are my mortal sin"... now this trance music had come into so many incarnations in bars across the nation. Hypnotic, raunchy and it has teh Spanish lyrics! Why am I including this here? I'm not. I'm just kidding.

The Real # 5.) Ngayon at Kailanman sung by Basil Valdez, words by Mr. George Canseco "Malilimot ka lang, kapag ang araw at bituin/Ay di na matanaw/Kapag tumigil ang daigdig at di na gumalaw/Subali't isang araw pa matapos ang mundo'y nagunaw na/Hanggang doon magwawakas/Pag-ibig kong sadyang wagas/Ngayon at kailanman"...While many would populate these lists with inconsequencial obscure foreign songs, all I can say is: Iba pa rin ang sariling atin. Original Filipino classics like this would always have a permanent residence in my heart. As the saying goes, they don't make 'em like they used to.

Five people I’m passing this to:
Now's the time for retribution. But does it have to be just 5? evil snicker
Markus -yep. I'm dying to know what you'd write here.
Mike -I know you've done this before. I know you have a lot more to write so I'm giving you the "opportunity" to wow us with your impeccable tastes. ;)
Bernadette/Bernard -Ang bagong Chonamae Banaag! yun nga lang ang twist this time is isa siyang fuschia-blooded becky! I love your blog brother/sister, I've been visiting eversince. There's no business like the entertainment business no? ;)
Carlo - I dont know kung ilan na ang nagtag sayo nito pero you could never have too much of a "good thing" diva? hehe. btw, let me just say: "Nakakaloka ang background music mo!"
Jay - lets mix it up a bit. Show us your music preference. :)
Cyndie - the flower among the...other flowers. :) tag! you're it.
Chris - a very fab person. I'm just curious what will be your choices. I know, it just says list 5 people. Wala ka magagawa. Pasaway din ako e. :)

This was fun.

[Music of the Moment: BrownCow's background music on his page ]
[Mood: musical ]

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Heteros, PLU's, Lend Me Your Ears

If you're gay and you haven't heard of the Pride Event on the 25th, well then you must have been living under a rock. Hetero people, you are excused and I'm posting this just to let you know that you're welcome to attend it too.

So, who's going?
And what are you wearing?

Heaven and Hell is the concept. If you ask me, this theme had been rehashed to death by so many events. Where's the legendary creativity PLU people are supposed to be known for? There are so many other themes out there dying to be tried. From the top of my head, I imagine something like "Drag Queens Are From Venus, Twinkies Are From Mars - Raunchy Space cowboys and everything else in between" or "Pop Culture/Hit T.V. Shows- Dress up as your favorite S.A.T.C., Desperate Housewives, (heck even Darna!) etc, characters!". Now those would have been a blast! Oh well, spectators cant be choosers. But it would be interesting what people will come up with as their outfits for this year.

I'm thinking of coming as an angel . Before you roll your eyes, its with a twist of course. I'll be scouring for that Angel Gabriel outfit. You know, from that Keanu flick, Constantine? Her/His wings were so damn fine, and so were those pants/leg warmers! Actually Becky Paolo (remember that guy from the pics wearing a 'grass' skirt?) is doing the same thing. Unahan kami sa Divisoria to buy those feathers! hehe.

But then again saying what you'll be wearing would spawn a slew of copycats or would altogether spoil the fun now, wouldn't it? I have a back up plan of course. Something completely different. And I'm not telling, of course. You just have to see it.

Anyway, please support the pride event. I have friends in the organizing committee and it would cause tears of pearls if it flops. Hehe, kidding. Come rain and icky muddy streets, see yah there on the 25th!


Michael Jackson and the doctor are walking out of the delivery room after his wife gives birth to their son. Michael says, "How long before we can have sex?" The doctor says, "At least wait until he's walking."

To all MJ fans out there, I'm so sorry, but I this just made me chuckle.

[Music of the Moment: Come On And Get Me - MYMP]
[Mood: proud ]

For A Little Touch Of History

You know what they say of those who do not know their past? Anyway, here's an interesting read:

The first Gay and Lesbian Pride March and Rally in the Philippines and the first in Asia, was sponsored by Oscar Atadero and Allan Tolosa and ProGay Philippines on June 26, 1994. Fr. Richard Mickley, who officiated the first Pride Mass in June 26, 1991, also celebrated the Pride Mass and gave the keynote talk at that historic event. It was attended by members of many lesbian and gay-friendly organizations at that time, marking the 25th anniversary of the Stonewall riots by gays and lesbians in New York, which set off the annual Pride celebrations throughout the world.

Malate has had several gay pride celebrations even before it was called the White Party in 2001. It was then organized by John Glenn of Blue Café early 90s, then later, Colin McKay of Joy. In 2001, Jay Santos came up with the all white theme and pitched it to Markus Schmidt and Jomar Fleras, the heads of the Organizing committee at that time. Thus the White Party in Manila was born. The White Party (Officially the Pride Party of Manila) has never been celebrated in other cities in Metro Manila on the same day, basically to encourage all gays and lesbians to join in a FREE celebration in just one venue on one night. And where else will it be most appropriate other than in gay Malate? Manila Pride celebrations had always been and always will be a Malate activity, as it is known worldwide to be the gay district of the Metro Manila, as Castro is to SFO, West Hollywood is to LA, and Greenwich Village is to NYC.

Task Force Pride, a network of 15 to 20 gay and lesbian-friendly organizations, primarily organized the Pride March later on, the last one in 2002 ( More recently, the Pride March/Parade is done in December at the Quezon City Memorial Circle, together with the commemoration of World AIDS Day.

As for PRIDE Party Celebrations in Malate (which used to follow the Pride March), it is organized annually by a consortium of gay owners of bars/establishments in the Malate area. The MALATE WHITE PARTY CONSORTIUM 2005 is proud to invite every gay and lesbian in the country come and celebrate Manila Pride 2005 in a FREE street party for everyone at the Orosa Strip! This year, performers headed by Aiza Seguerra, Ruffa Mae Guinto, and Bituin Escalante, grace the celebrations, together with Michael Cruz, the Hotlegs, and the Drag-ons of Club Mwah!

Stand up and be PROUD!
-thanks to JAYD for this info
[Music of the Moment: Crazy For You - Michael Cruz]
[Mood: nostalgic]

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

They're On To Me

disclaimer: some parts of this post had been omitted and can only be seen on my other secure bloggy. I put it on "friends only" lock for security reasons. You could read it entirely...assuming you have an account at Blurty and I add you as a friend. Mahirap na. Maraming mata ang kalaban.

I don't know, I just have to write this down. Its about (***deleted part***). I've grown so comfortable with my (***deleted part***), too comfortable to the point when sometimes I feel invincible.

Lets cut to the chase. (******deleted part*******) There.
It grew like an addiction for me.

At first, you were curious how do other people do it.
Then you get enough guts to actually try it for yourself.
Then you feel a tinge of guilt but you justify yourself: "I'm just gonna give it a shot once..."
Then comes the second.
Then the third...
The gratifying feeling of (******deleted part*******) creeps into you.
This is actually fun...
Then it comes to a point when you do it just because...
Just because you feel like doing it.

And then my (***deleted part***) came up to me just a while ago.
He was asking why out of 18 (******deleted part*******), 7 (***deleted part***) were (**deleted part**).

But then my trusty, devious greymatter fired up.
I countered the claim.
I also do (******deleted part*******)(which is legit).
I (******deleted part*******)from my end.

"The (******deleted part*******)," I said. "It doesn't (******deleted part*******)."


"Yup, thats plausible. I see it now." said my (******deleted part*******). "I'll include that into (******deleted part*******). Thanks, Derrick"

My poker face lasted until (******deleted part*******)was outside the field of vision.
Then sweat broke out on my face.

I won't do this again....for a couple of days at least.

Lie low. Fly steady now.

[Music of the Moment: Guilty (Of Love in the First Degree) - garrish 80's band ]
[Mood: Houdini ]

Monday, June 06, 2005

Sun Is Up

As much as I regret to come to this conclusion, I am officially cancelling my plans to join my tita in Beijing on the 24th. Sayang. But, all things considered, it wouldn't have fit in my fiscal projections. (projections daw o?)

I've got a bunch of high ticket gadgetry looming in the not so distant future, so I guess, I'd have to trim down my travel funds. I'll just stick to domestic forays this year probably. Next year na lang hahataw. hehe.

The date last Saturday went surprisingly well. Although a bit late, Ian more than made up for it. The Gateway is a good backdrop to a first date. The cinemas, the restos, everything is conveniently under one roof. The only gripe I have of movie houses is that their seats are way too stiff. However the food is still divine. Since I rarely go to The Gateway, I took him to Rasa (Singaporean delicacy haven). But no matter how glitzy The Gateway is at first glance somehow, I still prefer the sprawling grounds of Greenbelt.

We were able to catch 3 Pink Fest entries. Unfortunately, these 3 were from European countries - Norway, Belgium and South Africa (yes, its European). They were expectedly good, but I would have wanted to see works from the Asia-Pacific region where most areas are playing catch up to the "sexual emancipation" these countries are now basking in.

After the movie, I still have that urge to see another one. What to do when its quarter to 11 and you get this urge? Run to Greenbelt 3 thats what! From the Araneta Center all the way to Ayala. We got there 11:45. Thanks to its "I-dont-care-how-late-we-show-our-films-as-long-as-there-are-people-coming-in-in-droves" approach, you could watch movies as late as 1 am. I was dying to see Madagascar since I first heard of it. We came out really pleased. Its very entertaining and is definitely a must watch. Now, I'm on the look out on e-Bay for those fuzzy penguins. Arrgh. Damn them and their irrisistable psychotic cuteness.

Eventhough he was a Starbucks person (la lng. I can tell.) he went to the other side of the fence for me. I had him try out the X-Teas and my Javakula. I've just signed up a convert to SBC (they should be paying me for this, andami ko na na-"refer" e...)

Anyway, fast forward the night. This post is becoming waaaay too detailed. Jayzee texted me if we would want to pass by the gay capital of the Metro. He was in Bed with his boytoy. We came, we saw, we left the building. We then headed out for late night/early morning KTV. Yes, kelangan ko talaga siya isingit! Any guy who'd bear to hear me caterwauling, get 10 gazillion points.

We stayed up till late morning. Sparks flew. And mirroring Fidel's words: do we let new flames set ablaze when an old one is still sputtering out? As I've said, Mr. Wonderwall and I had a good run and a good adieu. In fact it was so seamless, it was like a prelude. My conundrum as of the moment is, after going thru the cave of shadows, what if the moment you stepped out there were multiple roaring blazes set before you,

do you only chose one?

I've always piloted my planes with eyes closed. This time I'm seeing the ground below, the clouds above and the stars between my feet. I'm supposed to be scared out of my wits, but I'm thrilled with this new flight. Destination?

I'll just have to see how this pans out.

[Music of the Moment: I Like To Move It - King of The Lemurs ]
[Mood: karate chopping ]

Friday, June 03, 2005

All Aboard The Friday Train Of Thought

Friday night once again. The entire weekend is already booked for things to do - that is of course if I do not find myself in a comfortable position in my bed on a balmy day then I might just throw all prior appointments to the wind. You have to admit, its a lovely time to get in between the sheets these days, especially now that the sun is retiring from its scorching ways. Downside is, when the rains pour, it really pour like crazy, spoiling a would-have-been perfect day.

I woke up today screaming for more sleep. I had overindulged myself with the late night shows, my Sandman series and Kingdom Hearts (don't ask, its a guilty pleasure) last night. Our dog woke me up a few minutes after 1pm. Yup, Jun-jun the dog. He's a livin', breathin', poopin' alarm clock. We trained him to wake us up and he's pretty much doing a fine job. Now as for how can he tell the time? Thats the eerie part. But it works for us, so some things are better left unexplained.

At work, its pretty much the same old grind- except without the grinding. What I'm trying to say, is that my job would be the lazyman's nirvana. I get paid substantially to do what most people consider as leisure. I surf, I write, I mingle with the co-workers, I eat, then I surf again, blog.... Where's the work part? Uhm, that was it. I love it.

Just a few minutes ago, Fidel texted me to tell me that he just got home from school. You read that right. School. He's only 19, btw. Whoops, let me rephrase that...He's 19, btw. There. My friends had been asking me what's the deal. I throw the question back: what's the deal with them? So what if there's a 4 year gap between our ages? (actually, its "just" 3 and a half months..) He's the most 23 year old sounding 19 year old I know. How's that? And besides, its not like we're gonna get married. Or the fact that we're not "boyfriends". I don't do boyfriends anymore. It's just "us". I've no need for labels. Its too..limiting. As for the age gap, if the heterosexuals can do it, why can't we?

Anyway, I'm looking forward to The Pink Festival tomorrow. Its been a long while since I went out to watch a movie. I'm having a date with someone I met on Downelink. Nothing major. He just asked me out. He sounds ok on the phone, just a little bit too 'giggly' for me. I'd like to belive that I've been blessed with a good sense of humor, but just the slightest joke from me cracks him up so much. I'm not saying its bad, though. At least the person knows how to laugh, right? So if you happen to be heading our way, maybe we can have dinner after the movies. See you at The Gateway! :)

[Music of the Moment: Through The Fire - Von Arroyo (I swear, this guy sounds even better than Chaka Khan!]
[Mood: eager for the weekends ]

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Tori Delirium

Darwinter: I just had to talk to you. I want you to be the first to know this. Things got outta hand...

Advent: So now you'll be cutting to the chase?

Darwinter: Rather than letting them breath on my back and watch my every move. I can say business.

Advent: They won't buy that.

Darwinter: ...

Advent: Just say your bearing a child. They'll talk about it for a time, but it simmers down. We know the truth.

Darwinter: You're crazy.

Advent: I love you, too.

Delirium, the youngest of The Endless, you are the keeper of insanity, delusion and everything else that's just plain crazy. You make about as much sense as fish and telephone flavored ic
Delirium, the youngest of The Endless, you are the
keeper of insanity, delusion and everything
else that's just plain crazy. You make about as
much sense as fish and telephone flavored ice
cream. You are truly your own person, and the
fact that your eyes don't match, your hair is
three different colors, and you have a floating
fish following you doesn't bother you any. You
have a truly unique perspective on the world,
and no one else knows what to think about it.

Which Endless are you?
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[Music of the Moment: Joss Stone - I Had A Dream ]
[Mood: settled ]

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Need Not Be Wordy

From an online friend on his Final Interview:

So Marvin, what is the secret of your success? How did you graduate cum laude in La Salle? How did you top your board exams? Operations supervisor at age 22? How did you do it?, an HR officer asked me during my initial interview for a managerial position...

"Two words", I said.

"And, Marvin what are they?"

"Right decisions." I replied.

"And how do you make right decisions?", the HR officer asked.

"One word." I said.

"And, Marvin, what is that?"

"Experience." I uttered.

"And how do you get Experience?” the HR officer added.

"Two words"

"And, Marvin, what are they?"

"Wrong decisions."

Ang taray no?
(thanks Marvin)

[Music of the Moment: nothing - I dont have my WinAmp on. Does the aircon count? ]
[Mood: applying ]