Friday, January 28, 2005

Checking My Vital Signs

eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 6/10
Physical: 2/10
Giver: 6/10

You are a XPIG--Expressive Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Catch.

You are a magazine-cover, matinee idol dreamboat. Parents love you and want to set you up with their kids. However, first dates are tough because it takes time for your qualities to come out.

You are generous and kind. You think first and act later. You are cool in a conflict, but your practical side means if your partner throws out emotional appeals ("why can't we do what I want for a change?") they will grate on your nerves, even when the conflict is resolved.

You're a romantic. You enjoy the thrill of the hunt, and you don't just fall into bed with anyone. You pay close attention to your significant other's needs, and this makes you an excellent lover and partner. The problem is that your friends and lovers may find it so easy to express things to *you* that they lose sight of whether you feel as comfortable with *them*! This doesn't necessarily make you feel under-appreciated -- you're too well-adjusted and self-aware for that -- but you may feel restless. Thus you seek adventure in your life outside the relationship to prove and actualize yourself.

Of all the types, you would make the best parent.

You are coiffed.

Didja see "Big Fish"? 'Cause you're like Ewan MacGregor in "Big Fish."

Of the 184113 people who have taken this quiz, 9.3 % are this type.

Take the Test . See what type you are


I don't usually go for online test but there are tests like these that catch my fancy.


I'm starting to sleep like a log lately. I hit the sack sometime around 1am, partially wake up around 11am and ask a couple of minutes more. I've shaken off the last vestiges of sleep at around 12:30pm.

What wakes me up? The cacophony of voices at home, blaring, lambasting enough to make the untrained ear bleed. I guess thats to be expected with someone who lives with banshees. I call my home the Cave of Wailing Sirens. But I wouldn't trade it for anything else in the world.

Make me sleep somewhere else and I'm afraid
I wont be able to wake up at all.
Not without rattling voices,
to shake my very core.

wash me up and break my ship but let me hear the siren's wail lull me to sleep.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Queen Becky And The Comment of the Day

2 beckys on the floor, chatting over Trillian and YM:

jesu2100: uy friendship, ano nang chika?

caladbolg78: haha. becky ka talaga

caladbolg78: alam mo ba galit kami nitong katabi ko

caladbolg78: kaya dedma ako sa kanya d whole day

jesu2100: bakit naman?

caladbolg78: e pano ba naman, pag pasok na pagpasok pa lang ha. late

sya. ako naman concerned lang sabi ko "run mother run!" feeling ko di nya
na gets. ayun sumimangot. tapos maya maya

caladbolg78: sinabi ko lang na may queue, nag maasim na

caladbolg78: nag hanap talaga ng away. edi ako naman syempre di papayag
na balajin no

caladbolg78: BINALAJ ko rin ang bruha

jesu2100: aba nagmamaganda ka na ngyn!

jesu2100: bakit nagmamaganda ang mga tao ngyn!

jesu2100: huwag kayong magmaganda!

jesu2100: ako ang reyna!

caladbolg78: hahaha. hindi ikaw ang reyna dito. prinsesa ka lang!!~Ms.

jesu2100: O:)

jesu2100: hahaha

jesu2100: (*)

caladbolg78: ikaw kasi hindi ka makapag maganda kasi wala kang katabi
para pagmagandahan dyan!!

caladbolg78: hahahahahaha

jesu2100: hindi ko kailangan ng katabi dahil natural na ang kagandahan

jesu2100: oh ano ka!

caladbolg78: BALAJ!!

jesu2100: magmamganda ka pa?

caladbolg78: ahahahaa

caladbolg78: naman.

jesu2100: hahaha

jesu2100: LOL

caladbolg78: X-P

caladbolg78: gaganyanin kita

caladbolg78: ang nagmamaganda X-P

jesu2100: ABA! magmamaganda ka!

caladbolg78: dahil dapat

jesu2100: (wave)

caladbolg78: walang batas na nagsasaad

caladbolg78: na bawal magmaganda ang maganda

caladbolg78: hahahahhaha

jesu2100: hindi ka pwedeng magmaganda dahil hindi ka reyna ng

caladbolg78: hoy! im next in line na sa trono!!!

caladbolg78: ahahahahahah

caladbolg78: X'D

caladbolg78: o bat di na sumagot ang ursurper to the throne of

caladbolg78: silence means defeat

caladbolg78: hahahahhahah

caladbolg78: 5

caladbolg78: 4

caladbolg78: 3

caladbolg78: 2

caladbolg78: 1

caladbolg78: 0!

caladbolg78: ok talo ka na. inamin mo na na nagmamaganda ka lang

caladbolg78: hahhahaha

caladbolg78: X'D

jesu2100: ang reyna hindi kailangan magreact

jesu2100: dahil yan ang breading ng reyna

jesu2100: no need to boast

caladbolg78: hahah BREEDING, hindi BREADING. ano ka isda?

caladbolg78: hahahhaaa

caladbolg78: X'D

caladbolg78: :'D

jesu2100: aba

jesu2100: nagmamaganda ka

caladbolg78: ROFL

jesu2100: hahahah

caladbolg78: lagyan mo nang sound yang sayo ang kulit ng smily na to.

caladbolg78: rofl

caladbolg78: X'D

jesu2100: :o)

End of jesu2100 buffer: Tue Jan 25 19:14:00 2005


Kakasakit ng ulo no?
'Coz if you got hours to burn with zilch to do, you go unleash the inner Becky.
And that ladies and gentlemen is an intermission courtesy of the letters D and P. :)

Monday, January 24, 2005

A Friday Night And Then Some

Yup. For the first time in a year. Me, out on a Friday night. Almost surreal. This schedule rocks.

Wonderwall and I saw Kung Fu Hustle. (and cut. I'm sticking to my promise of not putting up more entries about him. For now.)


Fast forward to Saturday. Toshi gave me a welcome surprise. He hooked me up with his uber hot office mate, Mon. I remembered I told Toshi in a jest a long way back that I have this huge crush on one of his friends and that guy was making me wet all over. Turns out, the hag took it to heart and went to great lengths to have our schedules coincide.

Profile: Mon is tall, 5'10-5'11 (a little bit out of my neighborhood, but hey. I'm not complaining), with semi-buff (you know, just the right amount of buff here and there) bod, a milky complexion, and a face with a mix of boyish and manly charms (startling resemblance to Emilio Garcia, you know, that used-to-be-boldy actor. YUM!).

I can't believe I was able to get it together and not appear like a salivating lunatic in front of him (thats how I used to be in front of the people I admire physically). And much to my surprise, we have a lot of interests in common. He reads the same books I read, likes the same places I've been to, would want to go to the same places I've only dreamed of, shares some of the philosophies I have on life, love and what not..ok I must stop, Im blabbering. But the most important thing I liked, we can make each other laugh out loud.


(Biglang napag isip tuloy ako. Naalala ko yung sinabi ni Paulo, "Kelangan may kilig factor. Pag wala na edi ligwak!" OO, mataas ang standards kasi ni Becky Paulo. Meron naman kasi syang K magdemand e. Pero ako, I know where I stand. I can demand, pero not to that extent. Basta ayoko lang. Pero eto ang conundrum ko -conundrum daw o?- Pano kung sa pareho ka kinikilig? heheh.)

We chilled out at Seattle's in Greenbelt 3. There we had our nightcap. And what a steamy one at that. Add the fact that eyecandy are in abundance, we had enough fodder for our verbal cannons. Just Me, Toshi, and Mon.

You know that cliche that "Time flies when you're having fun"? Well it did and how I wish I had a gilded, reinforced steel cage to keep it in. Let me throw another cliche, "Nobody's perfect". And how right it was. At 1a.m. in the morning after being with us for 8 hours straight, Mon had to go home because he's asthmatic and he came down with a mild attack. I never knew, the whole time we were together. Turned out, he did not want me to see it.

I wanted to take him home but he told me he got it. And as he was getting on a cab ride home after assuring me that he'll be ok, he asked me if I'd want to continue what we were doing the next day. I wanted to look around and see if he was talking to somebody else but he was just looking at me. I was about to open my mouth when out of the blue, Toshi lived up to her Toxic Queen designation and answered,"No way, I don't go out on Sundays, dahling. I have shows to catch, tons to do, blah blah blah." Our gazes met with a pained look, however we weren't able to contradict her Royal Highness (more like Royal pain in the ass). And so I watched as his cab drive away.

Oh well, at least he got my number.


(At syempre napasimula na naman ako ng pag iisip. Bakit ba ganun? Bakit ba ganun ang mundo? Bakit ba bilog? At meron bang batas na nagsasaad na bawal magbigay ng pagkalinga at apeksyon sa dalawang lalake? Lalo na kung lalake ka rin? Biro lang po. Sa totoo lang naman, alam ko naman na isa lang itong distraksyon mula sa nakasanayan. At kung nagpapasaya ito sa iyo, bakit hindi? Basta masarap pag marami...maraming kaibigan.)


Currently stalking this blog: Tyang Mario's

He cracks me up. And he has erotica on the side too. :)

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Show Me Some (Company) Lovin'

Im in a fix right now.

I know that there are greener pastures out there, but I just can't-for the life of me- ever leave my company/account. Its not that I am complaining about what I'm makin right now (its enough, no question about that) its just one of those days where your stuck between Scylla and Charybdis.

There had been a slew of openings within the company, its just that, they are in other accounts. Operative word there: other.

Case in point, my account is the pioneer in this company. Its the most stable and has the most competent set of Management that anyone could ever ask for. When it comes to the workload, its like we are threading on heaven's garden. We are the least stressed representatives in this company, and might I even be bold enough to assume, in all other call center companies out there.

When it comes to recognition, this account gives out prizes like trips to Boracay, Bohol, spa treatments, DVD players, X-boxes, $moolah$, like there is no tomorrow.

As for the scheduling, can you believe that we are working FIXED hours? (To all you non-call center people out there, this is no big deal, but hey, to us, this is saying much!) I've had my schedule now for 7 months. 10pm to 7am with Saturdays and Sundays off. Now every once in a while (like once a year!) we have this Shift Bids, which as the name implies, getting your preferred schedule is a contest. You want the schedule of the Anak ng Diyos? Then you have to work for it. We are ranked as to how well we perform and the top rank gets to chose first, then the 2nd rank, and so on and so forth. Now this is what makes this "game" interesting. You talk among your group and form a final plan as to who gets which sched. Now, in a perfect world, this would be just another day in the office. But not here. There are goody two shoes with daggers in their backs, rattlesnakes and crabs galore. What was agreed upon would be a contract written in sand. I look forward to this event every year.

Oh and I forgot to mention, I placed second overall. I chose the best sched in the land. 2pm to 11pm, Saturday and Sundays off. I get nearly the same pay, work when the rest of them white people are dozing off. I go to work, surf, blog, eat, chat oh and yeah do some little work on the side. Hay, orgasmic.


I'm officially Breaking Benjamin's bitch:

provided by

Breaking Benjamin - So Cold

"So Cold"

Crowded streets are cleared away
One by One
Hollow heroes separate
As they run

You're so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder while
Strong men die


Show me how it ends it's alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
satisfied and empty inside
That's alright, let's give this another try

If you find your family, don't you cry
In this land of make-believe, dead and dry

You're so cold, but you feel alive
Lay your hands on me one last time

Friday, January 21, 2005


This is a test post from

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Moral Support and Chili's

I've noticed that I've been putting up way too much posts about him. I promise this will be the last for quite a while (or until something comes up again, whichever comes first). Yesterday was another red-letter day for both us. It's his 24th birthday!! (bet you wanna know how to do that blinky thingy, huh?). I swore I was gonna kidnap him for the day.

And That I did. *evil snicker*

Highlights of the day:
+He dropped by my office to apply for a position. (this really caught me offguard, in a kilig kinda way.) This guy is a walking Everyready. He's finishing his studies, works for ABS-CBN in the The Filipino Channel department, AND he is the head editor of his publishing house, and now he wants to take my company on.

+Greenbelt, 2 hour stroll, having lunch at Chili's and pigging out on enough food to feed an entire army. (note: you know that common knowledge that you go home hungry even after a lunch/dinner dates because you don't really eat? Well, this is the anti-thesis)

+On a whim we headed out for that theme park in Sta. Rosa. We spent 100 pesos to get in Enchanted Kingdom and managed fool around with the attendants. (You have to have these fruity looking wristbands which costs 400 pesos to get on the ride-all-you-want scheme) We managed to ride at least 3 of the attractions without much effort other than smiling at them lovely attendants. Yes, sneaky, we are.

+When we went back to the parking lot, he made me listen to his MP3's. Groove, mood and trance. Unadulterated sound fusion, audio nirvana.

+Doing things in his car that our mothers wont approve of.

Another fine day in the life of me. So, mums the word from now on. Till the next red letter day.


This song has been playing non stop in my head for a few days now. Nothing to do with anything. Its just something to bump and grind to.
If his status ain't hood
I ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he lookin' at me
I need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Known to carry big things
If you know what I mean
If his status ain't hood
I ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he looking at me
I need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Gotta know to get dough
And he betta be street


Tuesday, January 18, 2005

I'm Feeling a Little Eliot Lately

Conversation Galante

I observe: "Our sentimental friend the moon!
Or possibly (fantastic, I confess)
It may be Prester John's balloon
Or an old battered lantern hung aloft
To light poor travellers to their distress."
She then: "How you digress!"

And I then: "Some one frames upon the keys
That exquisite nocturne, with which we explain
The night and moonshine; music which we seize
To body forth our vacuity."
She then: "Does this refer to me?"
"Oh no, it is I who am inane."

"You, madam, are the eternal humorist,
The eternal enemy of the absolute,
Giving our vagrant moods the slightest twist!
With your aid indifferent and imperious
At a stroke our mad poetics to confute--"
And--"Are we then so serious?"

If words were a cage that can encapsulate the glittering plummage of the bird sent from Paradise, this poem is the one gilded with gold and precious stones.

Monday, January 17, 2005

Sing While You're Winning

Bakit ba ganun?

I didn't expect things to pan out this way. I'm just...inspired by things that are happening around me lately. I'm sorry Emma Thompson/The Angel: I will keep on moving.


Bakit ba ganun?

I was wrong. Nobody can stand a 6 hour movie/DVD marathon. Not even I, I, I the arbiter of time.
I, however, love these lines:

Prior: You're seeing someone else.
Louis: What? No.
Prior: You are.
Louis: I'm not! Well - occasionally, I - he's a... just a pickup...
Prior: Goddamn, ask me how I knew.
Louis: How?
Prior: Threshold of revelation.
Louis: What?
Prior: Fuck you! I'm a prophet.


Bakit ba ganun?

The biting wind had been blowing as of late yet there's warmth in abundance. Maybe I'm just missing the drama of it all. That when you get to the point when everything seems in a state of bliss, an iota rebels. It's funny, this human predilection for bouts of melancholy.


Bakit ba ganun?

Outkast, you bunch of geniuses. You break the borderlines, genres do not define your brand of music. Sweet music. Music he played for me one night, while we were traversing the short route to soporific Greenbelt. What it means, I leave it up to the wind.


I hope that you're the one
If not, you are the prototype
We'll tiptoe to the sun
And do thangs I know you like

I think I'm in love again [repeat]

[Verse 1]
Today must be my lucky day
Baby, you are the prototype
Do sumn' outta the ordinary
Like catch a manitee
Baby you are the prototype
I think I'm..


[Verse 2]
If we happen to part
Lord knows I don't want that
But hey, we can't be mad at God
We met today for a reason
I think I'm on the right track now

Friday, January 14, 2005

How P20 Got Me Around In A Single Night

disclaimer: this is not the post I'm referring to in the tags I dropped everywhere. See the one earlier.


Dencio's Makati - Temple - V. Bar - Government

+Downing huge amounts of food and alcholic beverages.+
++Dancing till our feet screamed at us. ++
-Rubbing elbows with the who's who of uptown Manille. -
+++Meeting his fabulous friends, Queen, Bea and A.J.+++
Spent all in all: P20

How is it even possible? I don't know, but the night just passed by in a swirling haze of dazzling luminescence, which emanated from the experience and the people around. And when I got home, I made a run down of my expense: P5.50 for a jeepney ride, P9.00 for a bus ride to Ayala, Makati, and P5.50 to buy candy from a street vendor near the doorstep of my pad. What happened in between?

The party at Dencio's was a smashing success. Everyone was in high spirits and everyone came in their funky hats. (whats with these parties and theme hats anyway?) Nevertheless, I still brought my cowboy/haciendero sombrero. As I expected, almost everyone came in jester's caps. Bah, clowns. Oh well, at least the booze and the fodular substances cost absolutely zero.

My Wonderwall (link) called me up to tell me that he wants to see me. He also told me that he was with his friends. I did the math, and this sent unexpected chills down my spine. All the while I thought to myself, "Nah, I don't even know any of the peeps he hangs out with." Had to sober up a bit. Oh, cancel that. Keep 'em kegs coming.

"You look alcohol-ed" he said. He always knows what to say to make me smile. "I like it, like I could almost grab you and take advantage of you". And blush.

Temple is filled to the rafters. Devotees to the gods of consumerism and decadence. Amidst the dancing I saw two goddesses in revelry. Queen and Bea. I've never been stiff at introductions before but these two lovely creatures took my breath away for a moment.

We stayed for an hour in pure ecstatic worship but we had to cut it short because there were other tabs in the itenerary. Of we headed to the hottest night spot this side of Makati: V-Bar(formerly Venetia). We got in for the most desirable price in the world: Free. Turns out Queen knew the DJ for the night, so she and her posse gets in for zilch. (Lucky 'coz I have a measly 100pesos in my wallet, not even a third of the entrance, let alone the booze.) Now this crowd, is definitely NOT mine. Too much glitter. Too celluloid. Just, too much.

After a few minutes, I decided to head back to his car to catch some much needed air. I felt like a bird in sea of Angelfish, Starfish, Goldfish and Squids. Any longer in there and I'd drown in unwarranted ostentation. Noticing that I'm not in the party mood anymore, Wonderwall followed me (much to my surprise). And there we stayed outside, just sitting down on the gutters, talking about this hot guy we saw inside; laughing at this Powerboy (not telling who) who was so stoned, he was acting himself (read: gay as chartreuse) eventhough his boyfriend is prodding him to control himself; just having a blast without so much of an effort.

Governent was the last pitstop. When we got there, not a single (biological) female was in sight. Gay guys galore: effems, bisexuals, metros, drag queens, the whole rainbow. Although a little bit discomforted by this, Q & B sashayed without batting an eyelash. We wanted to follow thier lead but of course, we don't sashay (at least not in public). We stayed for just a few minutes because our feet were rebelling against us.

One heck of a night. The highlight of which was the drive home. Hay. Wala ako masabi kung di:

Destiny's Child - Lose My Breath

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Don't Have A Husk For A Heart, Click The Last Link

International aid organizations:
UNICEF (United Nations Children's Fund)
United Nations' World Food Programme
Medecins Sans Frontieres / Doctors without Borders (donate!)
CARE International
The International Federation of Red Cross and Red Crescent Societies

Disasters Emergency Comittee (DEC) - comprises a raft of aid agencies, including the below and others
British Red Cross
Save the Children UK

North America:
American Red Cross
Canadian Red Cross
Save The Children
Oxfam America

Anders Jacobsen: Webloggers: Give to tsunami victims and I'll give too!

Friday, January 07, 2005

Lets Get the Ball Rolling

The year of the Rooster will herald in so many good tidings for you, Advent Child. You are one heck of a beautiful individual both outside and inside, and your magnificence will resonate to everyone around you. You feel the glow of new life coursing through your veins. Take this power and bedazzle everyone!

In terms of career, a promotion is looming in the horizon. You will be up there among the gods and goddesses of Mount Olympus. You will be given an iron fist, a leather whip, leather thongs, a handcuff, and a heart of pure gold. What you want to do with them would be all up to you. Make your rule a benevolent one and your subjects will be loyal.

This year, a lot of travelling is written in the palm of your hand. The burning desire to go places will be further inflammed this year. A boon from your father will open the doors of the world for you. See the world, take in all its beauty. Three great continents would be wrapped around your little finger, you lucky bastard. A good tip where you could get price cuts so low, its almost criminal, would be in tsunami prone areas, just watch out for signs though, like chickens or dogs acting all crazy. Ignore them and you'll be swept away.

In your lovelife, it will be nothing short of orgasmic. You are definitely a lot stronger now. Everything you've learned was in preparation for this moment. You will meet a new individual who will make you believe in life and love again. The sparks you share between you two will be enough to start the Great Fire of Manila this year, so be it indoors.

Overall, you are like a roaring bull, ready to take on the seemingly insurmountable challenges 2005's Cockmeister would bring. Hold your ground steady, you handsome devil you, more surprises abound in the year to come. ...

Ang ganda ng nakasulat sa kapalaran ko no? Syempre, ako gumawa nyan e. Walang pakeelamanan!!


Gusto kong simulan ang taon na ito with such a kick ass entry, I'm gonna look back on this post come 2006 and beam with pride. So pano ba sisimulan? Why not have a run down of everything that is new in my life right at this moment?

First of all, New Blog life! Can this fact be left out? Ever since I've moved to these shores from that old blog of yore, I've been experiencing one epiphany to the next. Ewan ko ba, siguro, you find so much freedom in anonimity.

New Look! Papahuli ba naman ako sa aspect na to? Heller? Kelangan ata ito sa career! Alam mo na yun! Be the best, get the best. heheh.

At shempre kung may look, may New Outlook in life! I've learned a lot from the past year. At this point, I'm ready to shed of all inhibitions, all resentments I've had towards all the things I've found and lost. And all the while I thought Forgetting would be the better option, I've realized that its not. The ultimate panacea would be to Forgive.

New Philosophy in love. Yes ladies and gentlemen. I've been jaded the last quarter of 2004 and almost (ALMOST) lost all my belief in that little thing called love. But love is an unquenchable emotion and a life could never be completely devoid of its ethereal presence. You see, it comes in forms you've never even thought about. Just when you think that you have grown cold to l'amore's caressing arms, BAM!, you're hooked again. Alam niyo, hindi naman talaga natin kelangan nung eternal cliche na "better half". All we need is our "better self". That goes for both you and your special someone. Ang vague no? Pero think about it.

New Circle of Friends. You beautiful people, you. Paulo, my dashing F4 compatriot; Cris, my ethereal muse, Gaye Anne, my Hotbabe kumare.; Toshi, ang maanghang yet love-able na Haponesang tunay; Dream, the girl who's everything, Arthur, Espanol extraordinaire; the NSI Braso Boys; Chiqui, Karen and Dulce, my girls-in-training (you've learned from the best! ha!) and most importantly YOU, you who brighten up my day with your presence. You make me feel that Unbearable Lightness Of Being. *winks.

And when everything is said and done, New Hope. This year, I will live like a king. I'm gonna be so good to myself, I will pamper myself, I will love again, I will travel and see the world. Yup, its all about me, baby.

Hay. Life is good.

I've said my farewell to 2004 and here I am ushering in 2005 by doing the most important thing I will ever do-

... write my own destiny.

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Kick Ass Entry Coming Up.

Watch out world.
Here comes Advent.

in the meantime, check out the
new layout.
(well minor changes here and there)